I did stand in awe of all that was lost to me, those last moments.
A
mother that did birth and love me, though her way was horrible in
repair. A father that ran and denied me, though his life was truly his
own. A small one that wonders if anyone sees him, loves him, will care
for him? A pitiful family in tatters, though they saw only their single
destructive and selfish path. Still, I learned, and I walked and
talked, and I wanted the best and never the least. Myriad were
forebearers and teachers, lost to time and darkness, and yet I could
choose. In some cases, they were thrust at me, Thank God for these
gifts of people! Myriad were my challenges, though all said I would
lose. Many were the doomsayers, stating my life meant nothing. Still,
were the few, the strong, the believers that hid behind the scenes and
whispered, “You can be more! You can rise above!” Your path, through
dirt, mud, or concrete, was it an easy one? Once laid, without a turn
of the wheel? Nay, never, not even! All have to sweat, to hurt, to try
and fail and die! All have to close an eye and sleep and hope tomorrow
is better. The first breath, a struggle of life to come. The last
breath, of life, fought and won. Between, the choices we make, the
friends we meet, the people we love, our triumph. Friends, loves, life!